July 26...

Do check out my band's space at www.myspace.com/bandepiphany

July 12......

Ah finally...

Been quite busy at the moment with band practices and etc... glad i got my guitar back from the states in one piece... i'm a little tired from practice so i won't write much..

check out epiphanyband.blogspot.com

It's an alternative christian recording project that I'm currently involved in. The link above is actually the blog page for the band to chat and post up annoucements, but if you want to check it out do feel free... but trust me, there's nothing you can find in there that'll benefit or entertain you.. haha...

adios

May 17....

I'm so upset with FedEx! (i call them FedUp). When i called the FedEx call centre last week to schedule a pickup for my PRS to be sent to Singapore (it has to go through my dealer there, then it'll be shipped back to the USA, it's standard protocol), the cust service relations fella (or whatever u call them) said that my guitar will go down to Singapore via a FedEx truck. I was relieved, because the last thing i would like my guitar to get on is a PLANE, unless necessary!

When the FedEx pickup guy came to pickup my package, it was just a sad moment to see my guitar go away. And you know what?????? My PRS went on a FLIGHT, as i said the last thing i would like my guitar to travel on is a FLIGHT unless it's on a long haul journey. Urgh! I used the tracking number that was given to me and guess what? That same night it was flown to the Philippines and then back to Singapore! im FedUp with FedEx. If i was shipping something non-fragile i wouldn't even care. I've heard enough complaints about FedEx from my other friends when they ship their fragile items over, and it reaches to the destination in pieces. They recommended me to use UPS or DHL, but how? No choice, my dealer paid for shipping and they use FedUp, i hope that when my guitar comes back from the states it's flown back using UPS or DHL, I hope PRS uses them. Enough ranting for a day, I'm missing it heaps. It's there on evaluation and warranty. I'm the unlucky one in a million.

My parents were away for a night and then so happen my sister (amelia) wanted to watch MI:3, but I've already watched it so what the heck. Last minute someone wanted to have lunch with me, so we went to 1utama, my sister went for the movie, and i bought tickets, TICKETS! I got 2 tickets for the premiere of The DaVinci Code movie, on thursday. The best seats in the house. Yay! I'm so excited i can't wait for it. I do hope that it meets up to the standards of the book..

I've gotta go sleep now, long day ahead tomorrow...

May 9..

I got my PRS (Paul Reed Smith) Custom 24, 20th Anniversary, 10 Top guitar on the 11th of April.. Erin called me a braggart. People who own this guitar don't even need to open their mouth to brag, the guitar itself will do it for you. Well you know what's happening??? It's going to be shipped back to the PRS factory in Stevensville, MD, USA tomorrow for warranty related issues. I'm so upset.. all in less than a month! Happy now? I don't want to talk about it! I'm too upset!

Anyway for those of you who are interested, we're going to play badminton (& probably swim)again at Adrian Lee's Crib at 5pm today.. anyone interested just give him a call at 017-8898411 for directions..

Anyway, i gtg now, i really upset and getting depressed.. for the past week i've been arranging the shipping details (and etc) with my PRS dealer and PRS themselves on the warranty issue. The good news is that PRS is going to pay for my shippping both ways! (they better be for the price i paid for the guitar, i expect excellent cust serv) But the bad news is that I'll miss the guitar like hell. FedEx is coming over to pick my guitar up in the afternoon later... :( I feel like crying.. really :( *sob*sob*

April 20.....

Here are a few pics from the sunrise service at the National Hockey Stadium... =) Enjoy...

April 18...

Sometimes do you wonder whether the people that say they are close to you actually really care about you? i don't know.. really..
Barry and I were having this chat about 2 weeks ago about that, and we were talking particularly about someone that is close to me.. andhe asked this question, "You obviousy care for her really well, taking her our for dinner's, driving her here and there.. but do you think she actually cares for you and spends time or at least take a lil' effort to send u a text message to brighten up ur day.. just the simplest of things, think about it, chew..". Then it strucked me. I'm still puzzled and have not answered that question yet.. I'm thinking about it... still trying to notice the slightest of cre shown to me .. anyway.. scrap it.. i don't intend to get depressed anytime sooner..

It's been a tiring weekend.. really.. so yups.. back to my books.. see ya!

April 3.....

Wow.. it's been sometime since i last blogged.. wait.. let me rephrase that ... A LONG LOoooOOoong Time! :)

I'm sooo happy! I just got a new guitar.. and you know what?? And you know what's pathetic? It's not an electric guitar, it's an Acoustic? I mean.. adrian chew.. playing acoustic guitar? you gotta be kidding me. Well u have to blame my darn fingers for touching that guitar in the first place. The sound, the finish, the beauty of 5 different exotic wood used on this guitar, totally seduced me.. and of course.. the brand larh! Taylor.. I mean this is not one of those cheap or should i say, the regular shelf guitars.. If you don't have at least 5k you can't get the cheapest one. Don't ask how much i paid for mine.. you will be thankful u didn't ask.. really.. :) but the good news is that i got it for a bargain.. =)

Chris ling lent me a cd.. the latest Jeremy Camp unplugged album.. guess what.. exactly the same brand, the same model.. a dreadnought shape with no cutaway... Nice... =)

Well for now, i play with my acoustic guitar more than my white baby. Sad huh..
I just realised that i have 4 nice guitars that i love so much.. all with a hefty price tag hence my taste for the best..well i talked to dad about getting my last electric.. actually the one that i always dreamt of.. it's about 12k.. hoping for it to come by the end of this year or mebe next year.. no idea.. might not even buy it.. but if i do get it.. it will be my LAST! I promise!

I have posted a few photos... have a look at it.. i got the bridge pins changed to nice gold bridge pins. U can see the wood 'figures' ... found on only high end guitars like this.. The 5 different kinds of exotic wood on my guitar is the Sitka Spruce, for the top of my guitar (as seen in the 2nd and 3rd photo) imported from the western regions of North America, then for the sides and back of my guitar is the African Mahogany from Africa, and for the neck of the guitar, American Mahogany.., then for the saddle and headstock, Indian Rosewood is used..and lastly the fretboard, which uses Ebony from east india... =) All exotic woods..

Haaah...Forgive me for my ego trip today... a man like me just loves his toys.. :)

Anyway..I'm tired from badminton with ken, serene and etc... gtg now... need sleep.. long day ahead tomorrow..

November 29...

OMGoodness i didn't realise it has been sometime since i last blogged. Lauranne MADE me do this.
I went for a camp! CAMP! FINALLY!... 2 Friday's ago. Gawd i had fun but the work load was insane... Being a RR cmdr ain't that easy. Not going to talk much about camp but i'll just explain in brief. I was in-charge of building the traditional Council Fire for the night of them camp and it's quite a huge task. Took 3 hours to chop up the wood needed, together with uncle Micheal Chang giving me a hand. Some of the wood logs were as big as Mabel Wong i dare say.. my hands hurt so badly after that. The fire for that night was great, the fire lasted from 8pm all the way to 7am in the morning.. we used it to reheat some BBQ left over from the previous night, for breakfast. We went River Trotting for about an hour.. well, going with little kids isn't that fun you know, but heck, we're there to take care of them. I have to admit, we had heaps of fun. During the river trotting activity, i got to test my pair of Teva's that i got 2 months back. I was really impressed by the grip it had on the wet rocks are river bed. I'm going to get a new pair for normal use and use my current one as a dedicated one for camping.. there goes another 240 bucks.. :( I got back from camp with 18 mosquito bites, including the 3 on my butt. Ouch. And also a sunburn.. bad bad one.. i think i got it when i was chopping the wood under the hot sun. :( I think i really overworked myself at camp. On monday, miaowkat and i couldn't help but to get our bodies 'tuned' in the massage parlour, by our regular masseurs. What a relieve.. =)

The last 2 weeks have been bad. Last saturday i found out my grandpa's kidney totally 100% faied and have to go for permanent dialysis ='( I miss all the good memories i used to have with my grandpa =( I can't get it anymore because of his condition .. we all know his time is coming up because of his heart, kidney, and stomach issues :(
And then there are issues with people and matters of the heart that are unsettled. Hurts, and a tinge of anger still lies deep down in my heart... Well .. Life is life... you have to live with all this kinds of things.

Anyway, here are some photos from camp.. a few photos of my sooooo cute baby niece and my nephews too... taken a few weeks ago during grandpa's 80th bday lunch..

November 11...

Yay! I finally got my request! I'm NOT playing for Christmas..!! WooHoo!! Reason 1.) Im NOT interested to play (u all know why.. don't ask). 2) Youth camp is right after Christmas and i have alot to do.. 3) I prefer Easter songs.. more rock-ish and more to my style.. for christmas it's better to give Thom a shot.. more to his jazz style.. =)
But u guys know the main reason why i don't want to play la.. that thing that happen with Ps Chris has turned my head around and pissed me off..

This last few days has been hard for me.. hurting and etc.. Don't know how to handle it... only God can help.... haih... only way to describe my self.. A Flower quickly fading, or just a wave tossed in the huge ocean... =(

Going out with bear soon.. have to get ready... =)

November 7...

Wow.. Last week was jsut.. WOW. Busy Busy and BUSY. Wedding preparations, Hair Cut, etc..
Got me hair cut from Nick at Sense Studio with Leen Leen.. I like.. Was shopping the whole week.. bought quite an amount of shirts from G2000, The Executive and etc.. For those of you who know me well, I HATE SHOPPING, so yea, it was pure torture. Got meself a new pair of shoes and etc. Last month and this month i have a spending record of over Rm2k.. am i crazy or what? I think i am, i was spending so much and i didn't realise it would be this much, but heck...

Adrian and Jen's wedding was good. Actually it was one of the most relaxed wedding ceremonies i've ever been to. The day started on Saturday morning at 7.15am with us groomsman at his house in DP before leaving to 'get' the bride at her house in Cheras. Reached Jen's house at 8am. Gawd, getting in was HARD.. all thanks to the bridesmaids. We had all sorts of stuff like eating chili padi, waxing leg (and YES, I was the only ONE who got it.. idiot), was conned into giving so many red packets and we were so stupid to give a big one for the first one. Crap. There's more stuff that happened bu all in all we got the bride and left for the ceremony. Ceremony was good .... Mr and Mrs Adrian Lee..

Hehe, i checked into my room at JW Marriott at about 4.15pm and right after that i proceeded for my sound check at the dinner hall for me special number. Dinner was good.. and you know WHAT???!! During the photo slideshow, they showed a photo of me and my leg getting WAXED! All Chooi Mun's Fault, and plus she's the bridesmaid that walked down the aisle with me. urgh. URGH! The dinner guests was just laughing.. expected.. hehe. Was pretty embarassing! All in all the dinner ended well... Ps Kenneth and Sandra Chin was sitting at me table, it was fun... at least now they know how lame we guys are.. lol

Next morning... oh gawd.. in the last 48 hours i only had 4 hours of sleep and pure WORK. so i was dead exhausted. And the stupid thing was that i had to wake up early to play in Cheras.. Dang.. wasted my sleep in Marriott.. and you know what's worse?? I found out that i had 2 nights stay instead of 1 night in marriot, when i checked outt.. Idiot. I checked out very early in the morning.. Missed practice in cheras (who needs practice anyway??) lol. After cheras i went for Grandpa's 80th Bday celebration and later rushed to 1 Utama to find a gift for someone i love so dearly.. was hard to find the right one but yea.. took time.. and i was quite broke.. only had like 100 bucks left in my wallet.. so yea.. I was running out of time and i left 1 utama after getting the gift (btw, who wants to go to 1 utama on weekends??? It's Packed!) and went to pick Mr and Mrs Adrian Lee from the hotel, for evening service. I was exhausted. We had dinner later and went back to their suite in the hotel and later went to the VIP lounge to chill there. I think i was chilling a lil' too much when i realised i just downed 6 glasses of Bollingers. Idiot. My head was dizzy, i was dead sleepy and i had to deliver the gift and the person lives so far away (and it was late already).. It was very VERY tiring that i had to stop the car 3-4 times during the journey to rest. It's THAT bad. It's not a matter of keeping my eyes open. It WOULDN'T stay open eventhough i forced it.. It was hard, but i hope the sacrifice was worth it. Love knows no boundaries. I'm quite hurt and upset with the person for something that was said, but yea, when it's someone's bday and you love them so so dearly, you just can't help it but to do something really sweet, no matter what it costs... I dropped it at her doorstep and yea..I got home at about 2am i think.. I dropped and knocked off immediately... So yea, could you now feel how it was like to live my day, bearing in mind i had 4 hours of sleep in the last 2 days. This is quite a long post, also to make up for me not blogging for sometime..

October 24....

How do you tell someone you're really upset because of something that was said to you that offended you or hurt your feelings quite severely, without the person even knowing that it affected you? I guess sometimes i just get too depressed thinking and crying over it when it hurts so badly, until i reach the point that i do not dare to face the problem and settle it because im badly hurt or damaged emotionally, to do it.., it even adds the pressure because i care and love the person more than anyone else.. :( You know what? I suck and i'm a fool.. i hate myself!

My week/weekend was quite ok.. the only thing that helped took off all my hurtful thoughts and feelings temporarily was when i went to Sheila Majid's Studio on Sunday afternoon for Adrian and Jen's Wedding Dinner Special Number rehearsal.. It was a blast.. Because in church you just don't see people like Joel Wong and Ken abuse the instruments like that, .. ONLY in a studio.. And well, ask them, we had a blast.. i've NEVER seen this musical side of the 3 (boss went home after we finished rehearsing his wedding special numbers) of us playing this kind of wild music and really REALLY having a good jam. Well playing in church has it's limitations.. NO circular music =) Yup, if we enforce the rules in church, we have to be a good example and not do it too. Was definitely one of THE BEST studios i've ever been to (Cmon gimme a break, it's Sheila Majid's Personal Studio) :P .. i've been to so many but all of them just suck... badly maintained, smells of smoke, sucky lighting (Yes we had Awesome lightings!) , Nice floor, and last but not least, High End Equipments.. stuff that i love playing on!...

Ok gtg now, need to go to G2k and KLCC for shopping... =)

Outbreak!

The weekend was great! It started on Friday night when we went to a gig at KL Jam Asia, in Hartamas, starring Edge of Fire, Qings & Kweens, Naked Breed and lastly, my exteacher.. Bejaya, together with Mozad. Was great... was there with Leen Leen, Serene, Barry, & Daniel... We definitely had a blast... I don't know, it's just weird because im like 'related' to most of them who were performing like Yings from Edge of Fire.. i grew up with him i church last time before he left, and his guitarist is Brian Siew's classmate.. Then Mozad, malaysia's best bassist, whom ive known personally for a long long time, and playing along with him is Bejaya, my exteacher. Then last but not least, Jai, from Naked Breed is Seken's brother in-law.... was a good night..

Oh yeah i forgot! Nick gave me a 'new' hairdo.. making me look abit gayish... no more spikee hair for me... hehe :D

Just got back from a movie with leen leen at 1 utama.. we watched Sky High... hehe.. i like :D
*Yawn* I'm tired .. want to sleep sleep ... lazy to write long long posts...

Xmas...

Haih... Should i play for the coming christimas presentation? Should I? Aih .. i have no idea. 1/4 of me says Yes and the other 3/4 says No... Xmas songs are NOT that fun to me... boooring.. Easter songs are much much (when i say Much i do mean it) lively.. and that means it's more of a challenge to play it.. and more Fun too..

Mebe i should take a break from playing for xmas.. let someone else play.. so i can take a break from those tight scheduled sound checks and demands.. i dunno.. gotta think about it.. Also, youth camp is most prolly right after xmas so it's gonna be a tight schedule for me.. just like last year..

aih... think chew... THINK! prob don't want to play.... but i'll see..

Down at the pit, nowhere to run or hide...

When something is tempered/broken/hurt, it will NEVER be the same again. In this case, it's my heart, my emotions. Somehow it will never be the same again, no matter how much effort has been put to rectify or to fix it.

Is it that hard to tell someone the truth about how you feel? I don't know...
U know what, im not in the mood to go on writing.. there's just too much to say but i just don't want to.... there's just too much troubling my heart and emotions now... I think i better go now, before i say more stupid things that mean nothing to no one.

This life is so over-rated. People only want the best of you, whenever and wherever they want it.. and then leave you alone to decompose for the next... only god knows how long, before they need you again... Well, is this what human's that supposedly say that they 'care' and 'love' you, do to you? I question myself that each and everytime. People only want the best of you, nothing else, and to make it even better, the CLOSER people want it even better. I've gave up trying to figure that out, yet still very upset and emotional about it, eventhough i try my best not to. Well, humans like me only get emotional only if they care so much about the person that is doing this to you... whether it's non-intentional or done on purpose.. right? *.........pls*

Well, things that were said or promised to be done were not done.. even the smallest of things. It's just to show how much that someone value you and how important you are to him/her.. eventhough they say that you are..

It's like what the song, 'Best Of You', says, " Were you born to Resist of be Abused?" .. I guess i was abused..

This life is so empty, and best of all, it's way over-rated...

September 26...

A friend is somebody who loves us with understanding, as well as emotion

Robert Louis Stevenson

Hey, I hope this will brighten up your day... =)

*at a Crossroad...*

I am very upset. I don't really know how to explain the situation I am in, but I really feel betrayed by someone so close to me... how the heck can u even have the heart to do this? It was said in a different way, but i know what you are trying to tell me... but the thing is, Why can't you be honest with me? Lack of Trust? Understanding? People can tell u that they care for you, but can't be honest with you... what is that??! ... I am dumbfounded...

Well... Life is life.... No matter what, i'll move on... *shrugs*

September 21

How necessary it is to cultivate a spirit of joy. To act lovingly is to begin to feel loving, and certainly to act joyfully brings joy to others, which in turn makes one feel joyful.

Dorothy Day

Perplexed.. Hurt?

Let me see, i got 2 complimentary RM250 STOMP tickets and went with dad on saturday.. best seats in the house, and best of all, it was great! Well it at least helped my bad day that was not getting better at all. Well, saw a number of church guys at STOMP too.. glad i got those tickets. And best of all, i just added another guitar to my collection :) anyway... on to the next boat..

Has anyone whom you hold so dearly close to your heart, told u something but actually went against it and compromised on what that was said? Well, i feel that way now.. it actually does hurt badly, especially finding it out from someone else... :( Humans will definitely feel confused, puzzled, and especially hurt, when someone that's so close to yr heart actually ignores you or not talk to you.. insensitive? I don't know... i gave up trying to figure that out because it hurts me more & more each time.. If u actually do care and love the person so much, u would take the effort and initiative to say hi, or to talk... in my case, i've done so much that i'm left so dry and can't give anymore, not because i don't want to, but because i have nothing after giving too much. Well, maybe there are answers that i do not know.. answers that will leave me devastated... or weeping on my knees? Well, God holds everything in His hands, as much as emotions may say otherwise, i choose to trust in Him.

Sigh, not done redesigning my room.. back to measuring some stuff so i can get it done with soon..

Mankind's attempt in becoming retarded

Well, people do wanna look retarded sometimes.. i think *wink* Those photos up there are just a jist of what weird people like us are capable of.. or not. Sorry guys .. hehe *grins*

Well just went to my normal massage today after 3 months... using my usual masseur. 1 hour of excruciating pain.. especially i'm known to be stiff and blocked on my lower leg and my neck.... he'll tell me to 'yan' for that few minutes while he 'releases' that area.. lemme give u an eye opener.. it's REALLY (and when i say REALLY i meant it) REALLY REALLY pain! As usual i was holding on to the bed so tight with my mouth wide open, trying to scream. But for me, it's worth it all.. every second of that excruciating 1 hour.. my body feels great now. Got scolding from my masseur when he found out that i carry a 35 kg box (my guitar effects) every week, in and out for practice/performance/worship... Haih.. older people always tend to make sure that we young people don't make mistakes like they did in the school of hard knocks... it's good.. but my IDIOTIC light case that i ordered from the states is not here yet!!! ARGH! that means more massage sessions to remedy it.

Ok, off i go now.. 2nd round at ikea.. re-designing most parts of my room.. Sigh, i hate shopping.