Monday, September 26, 2005

September 26...

A friend is somebody who loves us with understanding, as well as emotion

Robert Louis Stevenson
Hey, I hope this will brighten up your day... =)

*at a Crossroad...*

I am very upset. I don't really know how to explain the situation I am in, but I really feel betrayed by someone so close to me... how the heck can u even have the heart to do this? It was said in a different way, but i know what you are trying to tell me... but the thing is, Why can't you be honest with me? Lack of Trust? Understanding? People can tell u that they care for you, but can't be honest with you... what is that??! ... I am dumbfounded...

Well... Life is life.... No matter what, i'll move on... *shrugs*

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

September 21

How necessary it is to cultivate a spirit of joy. To act lovingly is to begin to feel loving, and certainly to act joyfully brings joy to others, which in turn makes one feel joyful.
Dorothy Day

Perplexed.. Hurt?

Let me see, i got 2 complimentary RM250 STOMP tickets and went with dad on saturday.. best seats in the house, and best of all, it was great! Well it at least helped my bad day that was not getting better at all. Well, saw a number of church guys at STOMP too.. glad i got those tickets. And best of all, i just added another guitar to my collection :) anyway... on to the next boat..

Has anyone whom you hold so dearly close to your heart, told u something but actually went against it and compromised on what that was said? Well, i feel that way now.. it actually does hurt badly, especially finding it out from someone else... :( Humans will definitely feel confused, puzzled, and especially hurt, when someone that's so close to yr heart actually ignores you or not talk to you.. insensitive? I don't know... i gave up trying to figure that out because it hurts me more & more each time.. If u actually do care and love the person so much, u would take the effort and initiative to say hi, or to talk... in my case, i've done so much that i'm left so dry and can't give anymore, not because i don't want to, but because i have nothing after giving too much. Well, maybe there are answers that i do not know.. answers that will leave me devastated... or weeping on my knees? Well, God holds everything in His hands, as much as emotions may say otherwise, i choose to trust in Him.

Sigh, not done redesigning my room.. back to measuring some stuff so i can get it done with soon..

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Mankind's attempt in becoming retarded




Well, people do wanna look retarded sometimes.. i think *wink* Those photos up there are just a jist of what weird people like us are capable of.. or not. Sorry guys .. hehe *grins*

Well just went to my normal massage today after 3 months... using my usual masseur. 1 hour of excruciating pain.. especially i'm known to be stiff and blocked on my lower leg and my neck.... he'll tell me to 'yan' for that few minutes while he 'releases' that area.. lemme give u an eye opener.. it's REALLY (and when i say REALLY i meant it) REALLY REALLY pain! As usual i was holding on to the bed so tight with my mouth wide open, trying to scream. But for me, it's worth it all.. every second of that excruciating 1 hour.. my body feels great now. Got scolding from my masseur when he found out that i carry a 35 kg box (my guitar effects) every week, in and out for practice/performance/worship... Haih.. older people always tend to make sure that we young people don't make mistakes like they did in the school of hard knocks... it's good.. but my IDIOTIC light case that i ordered from the states is not here yet!!! ARGH! that means more massage sessions to remedy it.

Ok, off i go now.. 2nd round at ikea.. re-designing most parts of my room.. Sigh, i hate shopping.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

September 8...

Grace and gratitude belong together like heaven and earth. Grace evokes gratitude like the voice an echo. Gratitude follows grace as thunder follows lightning.

Karl Barth


Love is not getting.... but giving... it is goodness and honor and peace and pure living - yes, love is that and it is the best thing in the world and the thing that lives the longest.

Henry Van Dyke



...Love is not getting.. but giving - After reading what i wrote, it evoked such a sense of regret and painful memories , .. being hurt by the ones i love & the ones i hold closest to my heart. I think i just gave too much, i can't give anymore.. not because i don't want to, but because i'm all dried up.. nothing left. It' s the actions and the little things that you do that projects the amount of love that you have for that someone.. actions speaks louder that words. This is why I tend to avoid people who do that, just so that i would not hurt myself even worse. It's hard to love, i have hurt myself way to far now. Is it this hard? :( I don't know what to do anymore.. =(

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Marche..!!



FINALLY, after months of planning, my dearest sis & I found a day that both of us were free to go and have a great night at Movenpick Marche at The Curve..

Met her up at 5pm at Sense Studio, (Aiyoh, now we are sharing the same hair stylist, nicholas, due to her usual styist's migration to Perth.. both bro & sis sharing the same stylist, cute.... hehe) then she got her hair cut..! It's really cute and sweet btw, rin rin?

Then, yum yum, we went to marche, got our 'passports' and got in, and looked around,... and 10 min later we realised that we were not that hungry yet so we left and came back later. The food there is great.. i mean for the fact that we planned to go there for a loooong time. lol . Rin rin had Grilled Salmon, and I had Lamb Shank... Twas a great night... got to hang out after a long time.. =) and now i'm not really in the mood to blog and i don't plan to elaborate either... for our privacy.

So rin, back to our old spot in 1utama again yar? i dislike The Curve, i felt TOTALLY weird there.. for the fact that i don't go there often! .. lalala... hehe

For the rest of you, i recommend Marche! and Yes, i'm talking to you JOEL WONG KEN M'NG! Take Salby there! She'll love it!

Friday, September 02, 2005

Math Geekiness...

Theorem: All numbers are equal.

Proof: Choose arbitrary a and b, and let t = a + b. Then


a + b = t


(a + b)(a - b) = t(a - b)


a^2 - b^2 = ta - tb


a^2 - ta = b^2 - tb


a^2 - ta + (t^2)/4 = b^2 - tb + (t^2)/4


(a - t/2)^2 = (b - t/2)^2


a - t/2 = b - t/2


a= b


So all numbers are the same, and math is pointless... ya? =)